A sharing by Vivian
As most of you know, I’m heading home later for my 1 week break. I’ve just completed my Psychiatry posting in GHKL.(General Hospital Kuala Lumpur).
Psychiatry posting, initially sounded a bit scary but at the same time exciting to me as this will be the first time for me to have a closer contact with mentally ill patient.
For a mentally ill patient to be admitted to hospital, it must be a very bad condition. Most of them admitted have some kind of “weird” believe. (Ie: they are a spy, US government are against them, someone is watching after them, there is some chips implanted in their body to spy them)
It was quite enjoyable talking to them, listening to their stories and knowing how they think. Another challenging things I learnt is how to differentiate between reality and what is ‘only happening in their mind.’
One day, a Chinese uncle told me how Jesus had save him out from the hand of other Taoist God, and how he change from a Taoist to Christian. He shared with me how much Jesus had helped him both in his illness and his family problems.
At first, I just treat him as any other patient, listening to his story and choose which to believe and which not to.
His story had stuck in my mind. I kept thinking that what happened to him might be true! Everything is possible in God right… So I just let this be, not thinking further on this.
Another day, another patient came asking me if I know who is Rosifah (sounds like Malay name to me) so I told him I didn’t know. He then started explaining to me Rosifah is the biggest enemy of God, who betrayed God and wanted to fight with Him. Then I know he was talking about Lucifer. He even shared with his friends there about God and always carry a “daily bread” in his pocket.
Then I started to think again, will God really talk to this people? If yes, will they know? Will they be able to understand God? Is it true that God really talk to these people? How would they understand God when most “normal” people don’t?
I even felt bad for them as I thought they are seeking for God but wasn’t able to.
Then the issue on faith strike me. I have no faith in God that He will also love and care for them, He will also talk to them. I have forgotten that God will work in his own way and answer to whoever is seeking and asking from Him.
This reflects how I have been as a Christian all these years. Throughout these years, I always thought that I know my friends very well, they won’t be wanting to come to church/church activities, even if they come, they will just come for that particular event and that’s it. I refuses to talk to my friends about God because I think they are too scientific to accept what I say, and this won’t work for them.
So there is always an excuse to say no, and there is always someone else to reach out to them. I have no faith in God, so I didn’t reach out to people around me.
But the truth is, we wouldn’t know how God will work in the hearts of people. Maybe a little thing we do, through God, will eventually plant a seed in their heart and grow one day.
So this is what I’ve learnt in the last month, and hope that I can learn to have faith in God to constantly practice to share about God to those around me and let God do His wonderful work.